Anyways alot has changed over the past few months. I was admitted Inpatient again for about 4 weeks. From there I was placed in a foster home. I know the question alot of people have been asking me is "Why?!" I wont go too in depth, but the main reason was it just wasnt the most supportive, stable environment for my recovery. Things need to be worked on, and if they're not, I may never go back. That being said, I also want to point out that there are alot of misconceptions about foster homes. Alot of people think the foster parents are harsh or not responsible, but truth is the adults who contract to be a foster parent must go through rigorous testing often to ensure they are the right fit. Yes, there have been few cases where things didnt turn out well, but there are many more that turn out great. And, I assure you that I am treated well, and taken care of.
Sure there are many times, when Im lying in bed, in tears, because this isnt my home, its not my bed. There's no place like home, but right now home feels more like a cove of landmines.
Things here have been going really well. I havent felt this good about the future, recovery, or myself in probably my entire life. I like that in being here, Im treated like a human being, just like;Kassidy. Most everyone in the home doesnt even know I have an eating disorder. This, I really like because no one is walking on eggshells or treating me differently because my illness, that's not who I am. I actually feel like Im becoming the person I want to be, not the person I felt people wanted me to be. Im living! Im hanging out with friends, going shopping, meeting people, getting a job, laughing, enjoying life!!! Sometimes I have moments where I just stop and think, like "who is this person?" Im doing things because I really want to do them, saying what I want to say, no holding back. It's a really freeing feeling.
Im so incredibly grateful for the people in my life. My doctors, therapists, family, and friends that I cannot thank enough. Without you guys, I dont think I couldve made it to where I am today.
I also included an update video here it is if you'd like to watch.(sound quality is a bit bad, sorry) If you have any ideas about what my next video or blog update should be, comment or message me the idea! Thanks! Have a great day, and be strong <3
