Who wouldnt be excited?
ME.
The truth is, I'm terrified
Growing up makes me think of having to graduate soon, and moving out soon, and being on my own. And, when I think of being alone, it makes me think of my eating disorder. It makes it so easy to give into when I'm by myself.
For the past month in a half, Ive been struggling very much with my ED. Things in my life are crazy stressful right now, and i've been doing badly with using ED as a coping method.
Even on my birthday, all I had all day was a conflict with my ED. My family was going to go to Red Robin for a special birthday dinner and, at the last minute, I decided to go. And I'm so glad I did. I had a great time and I enjoyed the food. Though I wasnt able to finish all of it, I still consider it a great success! This was the first time I've challenged my ED in a long, long time, and it turned out even better than I imagined.
So, for everyone struggling with an ED, I encourage you to challenge him. Im not saying it's easy. But it's very much worth it.
"Dont let the sadness of your past and your fear of the future ruin the happiness of your present"
that quote is so true! i worry about my future often as well, but i try not to let it get me down, because things WILL get better, i know it <3 "Learn from yesterday, live for today, hope for tomorrow"
ReplyDeleteIt's been a couple weeks since I've visited your website (last times I left my comments anonymous) but I am shocked by this coincidence: I'm gonna be 16 tomorrow! I understand so well how you feel, in therapy I've discovered how much I'm afraid of growing and it has been worse in the last year. even though I still strugle with my ED too and find it hard to eat all weekend long, I decided that my sweet sixteen would turn the page on last year. Let's celebrate our youth, it's a brand new year to come! (:
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