This summer has been the longest, strangest, scariest, most worthwhile time of my life in a long time since my ED. Ive formed relationships with amazing people. This summer, Ive been 'out and about' more than ever! Through all the fun and friends Ive been really able to enjoy my life! And just a couple weeks ago I went on a mini vacation where I got to ride horses, something that at first terrified me! I also had my first toasted marshmallow ever in 4 years!!!
On the other side, there are the struggles. I am not in my home. I had to be taken from my home. I have no power to be put back in the custody of my family. And I feel like my family relationships are stressed especially due to me being here. It makes me feel guilty, in a way, I have no control in being here, in this new home, yet should I be enjoying myself? Should I be happy when Im not at my home? Yes, and no. I deserve to be happy, no matter where. But this doesnt mean that the reason I'm happy is because soley me being away from my home.
Furthermore, Im not going to let my home/living situation interfere with my recovery. I've worked too long and hard to get to the state that Im in and Im not gonna let anything demolish my progress.
I start back to school next Wednesday!!! Goodbye SUMMER! AU REVOIR! Anyways, yes, the first time being in a school building since my ED!! YAY. I'm really excited. I feel really confident about it! I hope everyone else's summer vacation has been enjoyable!
