Happy

Hey everyone!
I hope everyone is having a happy Tuesday! To say I am would be an understatement!
I got to see my old treatment team (because switches in insurance and blah blah blah) and anyways, it was just amazing. Just talking about all the POSITIVE and AWESOME stuff that I've been able to do since being in treatment.

I never EVER thought I could be this happy, especially in regards to just happy with myself.
It's one thing to be told good things, but when you're able to accept and say those things to yourself, it is just AMAZING!

I used to think these were things I'd struggle on and off with my whole life, and I guess a part of me knows those things are always going to be looming in my head. But right now, I think being recovered EMPHASIS on the -ed part, is very much possible.

If you are able to believe in yourself, and fight for yourself, not for your family, not for your friend, not because your doctors tell you to, is what makes recovery more real. When you are able to push yourself and move forward, life opens up for you. And life is amazing if you let it be, you have to look at all the good that's out there over the bad.

Anyways, in other news I have homecoming this weekend! :O so excited! And, yeah. So have a great rest of the day.

P.S. If you havent already. Try Starbucks' Salted Caramel Mocha! I originally went to get the Pumpkin Spice Latte, but they were out!!!! But this is just as tasty and it's good to try something new!!! YUM

Be Strong...

Be Strong everyone <3 It does get better.

Becoming

I haven't changed, I've simply become more myself....

School, Scales, and Tattoos...OH MY!

It's been a bit since I posted last, and it's amazing how much has happened in that time!
I smashed a scale to pieces
I started school
I got my TATTOO (YES!)


So first off, scale.
Yes, you heard right, I took the hammer to it :)

It was one of the most liberating things I've ever experienced. I was pissed off at the piece of metal that once held so much value. I thought of all the time I spent focusing on weight and calories when I could've been out making friends, kissing boys, just in general LIVING. And I calmly picked up the hammer....and BEAT THE SHIT outta it!
I encourage you to do the same.



Ok, next. Yes school started! I'm actually in a building...with people! The last time I was in a school building was miserable. And now, I'm actually kinda, sorta enjoying it?....yeah.  Im ahead of my studies and was even elected to be part of the Student Advisory Council!!! So I'm happy about that! VERY happy!


Oh, and lets save the best for last. I GOT MY TATTOO! I GOT MY TATTOO! I GOT MY TATTOO! :D YAY! I love it! It came out exactly how I wanted, and suprisingly wasnt very painful, at all.  It states "Free Yourself". To me it means, Free Yourself from ED, from people who try to hold you back, from abuse, from ANYTHING THAT HOLDS YOU BACK!